GCE N Level Results...

Excellent....nothing more to say.
Why? Both top students were from my class.
Nasuha Bte Hussain and Joanne Leng with 5As. In addition, 6 other students - Hema, Jasmine, Yuen He, Meiting, Simone and Yan Ni had 4As.

Last year's top student only had 4 As. The results speaks for itself.
So freaking proud of these 4NT kids.
EL results - 90.1% passes....not bad huh?

I'll miss this batch most. Only because 4H is my dearest form class and 4G, I see them everyday for EL.

Geeezzz...can't believe they're finally out of school. A new phase of life in ITE.

It's times like this that keeps me going :)

I-need-motivation,
RuDy

It's getting harder by the day...

One minute you're up, and the next you are down.

It's just so hard. So roller coaster like.

I had a good birthday (I think).
On that very morning, I found out that my dearest Ms Nathan passed away. She was found dead at home.
http://sg.yfittopostblog.com/2010/12/01/innova-jc-teacher-found-dead-in-flat/
Rest in peace my dearest teacher.
She was my all time favorite teacher. My biggest regret, to not have spend more time with her after I started teaching. I guess Agus and I were her favorites....but..sigh.

Next day, I had my CCA Leaders camp. I lve them to bits. They sabo-ed me....with flour and whip cream. I'm a million percent sure idea was Sylvia's. Though I'm so damn thankful to have Sylvia. She's an angel (though not many people will agree).
I'm alright with that. It was after all for them to have fun. They bought me gifts...2 to be exact. A PINKISH PURPLISH G STRING (which I'm gonna burn) and an Arsenal replica jersey. Loved them. A bunch of angels.
Pics are on my fb.

On the first, they planned a bonding session for the juniors. Which was alright. I didn't want to butt in. Everything was done by them.

A bunch of responsible leaders - they'll go far.

My athletes...I really don't know. I keep on telling myself that I SHOULD NOT get too personal. I am so disappointed to see only ahandful turning up for training.
Aaaarrrrgggghhhh.....I can't be a social worker like this.

Maybe I should just be like those teachers who don't give a hoot about what their students are doing. Maybe then I'll live longer and won't be so stressed out.

Then again, it's occasions such as what my leaders put up which drives me on.

Please oh please allow me to sustain my passion and my drive for my students.

I will need to summon all the positive memories to help me through this period. Easier said than done....

Mentally tired,
RuDy

I'm tired...

It's times like this that I wonder if I have done enough...

Enough to inspire the future generation...
I tried, believe me I did....but I guess the outside/peer influence is so much more influential than I am...

I know that I can't change the world, can't change everyone...but those that I really feel the need to help/change don't seem to see it at all.
I put in effort/time/blood/sweat/tears...everything. It's just not freaking happening.


The only thing that keeps me going...for now is memories. Again, relivingthese memories....
I had my little devils who meant the world to me...Weiwen (arguably my favorite, yet the most volatile), Eileen, Feon, Sandi (the sweetest of them all who always seems so stable) and Cheryl.
Then it ended...
A new batch began, my fantastic lads - Guhan, Vikram, Edward, Ashwin, Raj, Ramarao.....again, they've gone. They were good....no great. Blood, sweat and tears...wonderful lads.

Now...I don't know who I'm working and striving for.

People always say, some students will do anything for their teachers.......I'll do anything for my kids.

I think I've done a lot. Have I not? I guess it is never enough.

Now who.....my athletes are no longer build like Raj, Guhan, Edward, Ashwin and Vikram anymore. These boys put in 110% in everything that they undertook. Perhaps I'll never have a batch like them again. Is my passion for my athletes dwindling? Or is it them who just doesn't want it as much as the seniors anymore....My consolation ozg, ishaq and raafik. I'm just glad that they are still wonderful boys.....

I have/had wonderful talented boys and girls now.....shahril, sharwin, iniyan (had). Ani, nazeera, huimin and camilah arguably could have been a fantastic four. I guess they don't have the passion....
I feel bad.....sad....disappointed even. So much hope was pinned on these 4....but nothing to even dream of now.

Emissaries.....Sylvia and Arjay keeps me going. I just feel it in them, that they would want the best for their peers. I see it in their eyes, I feel it in the heartbeat and I sense it when I talk to them. Again, I know it's just for a couple of years....they'll be out of the system in a year or so.

Then what? Back to square one.......

Start all over again? A new batch of students...

Now I understand why....I understand why teachers need to have a heart of stone.
Not easy to see my first batch of sec 4s graduate....4H was special. I'll miss them....

All over again...year in, year out. Emotionally draining.....I see why some of the senior staff don't want to bond with the kids....not easy.

Let's see how much longer I can keep this up.......


Tired,
RuDy

15 Sept 2010

Date: 15 Sept 2010...

Many things have happened since the last time I made an entry.

1) Kind of forget that this page existed...
2) No free time...
3) Lazy...

A bit of all....sigh.

Recalling....hmmm....

Latest event I can recall was the YOG....went to a few events. namely Track events (on 2 different sessions) and gymnastics (trampoline finals).

YOG was a blast. Had the opportunity to visit the Youth Cultural Village as well. It was a good experience. An eye opener I must say.

Went with the CCA Leaders.....good leaders they are. Lots of pics as well.....

Next up, Teacher's Day. Someting diff this year. We had a carnival like atmosphere....played some games (floorball/captain's ball/frisbee).

Very different this year.......*reminiscing last year*. I had an unbelievable one last year....with my devils coming to sch. I guess it's different now.

Do I miss them? For sure....

I was glad that Guhan, Ash, Raj, Jayan dropped by as well. They are good lads. I'm sure they'll remain as good lads.

Past couple of weeks? Oh ya, Hari Raya last

Been a VERY long time...

Geeezzz Lewis.......

It's been AGES since I posted. Super duper hectic year. Can't believe so many things had to be done in 2 months.

Anyway, quick one. April was Sports Day. I was meet manager. Got some friends to bring their students in the invitation relay. Charles from AI, there's Si Ling and Evergreen too.

Aleksandar Duric was our GOH. Everything went well. We had Lyo and Merly there too. Good stuff. Carnivallike atmosphere....damn. Need to post the pics.

May - exam period!!! Tough....marking was tough.

June - HOLIDAYS!!! haha. Brought some of the kids to Cambodia, Siam Reap for their CIP trip. It was an eye opener. Weather was like 36 degrees and not a single fan in the classrooms in Cambodia. And to think that our kids are complaining when one of the 6 fans in the classroom is not working. Shame on us....
The kids there are so hands on. They fix their own tables and chairs. Hats off to them.

I think there's more that I can do to contribute to the society. So much more. ...I guess I need to reflect on it.

World Cup is HERE!!! Like the previous 5 World Cup, I am rooting for my Germany!!! Yeah, it's time to emulat the triumph of 1990!!!

OOhhh....time to watch the Spain game now. Post more later....


Ole-Ole-Ole-Ole,
RuDy

No time..

Busy as a bee...

Blog is dead....

Haven't blog for donkey years...

Happy or sad...

It's been a while that I wrote....

Don't ask me why....maybe no time. Anyway, O levels results yesterday. Ya....
For the first time....I felt a lump in my throat. The last time I felt this way, was maybe when Raj's batch took their N levels results...Dec 2008. (And how can I forget my 5 little devils in AI).

Beats me.....

I'm still wondering....

I'm proud and happy that Guhan, Lyani, Edward, Vikram, Ashwin, Jayan (my lads) did well. Averaging between 12 to 16 points is pretty decent. The fact that some of them can even make it to JCs is even more outstanding.

The lump in my throat....it'll take a while to go off.
I guess it comes with the job huh? One batch comes and another goes....
Though I've never taught them any major subjects (hey, not that I'm complaining), it's just I've always been deployed to where it is needed.....and in this case, we all know where I'm needed.

Anyway, though I've never taught them any major subjects, it's the experiences that I went through with them....Edward, Ash, Vikram and Lyani were my campleaders. ALL were my CCA members....half of them were my councillors....

We sure went through some sh*t together. And I sure did scr*w my boys for some silly stuff they did. But it's the whole package....I just feel more attached to them than others. When we train, we train our asses off. Up to the point that Vikram couldn't close his mouth...haha. Those were the fun times we had. Many fun times....

Maybe they'll hate me....I don't know. Maybe as time passed by, they won't even remember me. But that's fine.....I won't forget them. It'll be stored somewhere in this pea size brain of mine. I'm proud....very proud that they made it to somewhere and that they'll contribute to the society in time to come.

I guess I never had the opportunity to thank them personally.....to thank them for teaching me and allowing me to understand people better. Thank you lads......


My little devils didn't tell me how they did. That's fine....after all, I'm no longer with them. But I'm sure they did well.

I wish my 5 little devils and my lads all the best for their future. May they be successful in years to come.


Sad-yet-proud,
RuDy